Embarrassed

I'm constantly embarrassed, and I'm not quite sure why. I didn't always used to be this way, I was actually pretty close to the last person to ever become embarrassed, but I guess growing up takes away that courage. I think the most embarrassed I've ever been is when I threw up the first time I went over to my boyfriends house which is about three years ago now. I lived in a far away land while he lived in Utah, and I was on a road trip traveling from my state I lived in at the time to California, and then to Michigan. I was lucky enough to stop in Utah for a day to finally get to meet the boy I'd been talking to online for almost two years before the point, and was so nervous I literally threw up. Thinking about it today still makes me want to crawl in a hole and stay there for a couple of months, but either way things turned out fine. I'm also pretty embarrassed at the fact that I talked to a guy online for two years and had a major crush on him.

Well, that's all I can think of for now.